Just Wonerful

okay so we had a performance at a JV basketball game...... we blew it.... it sucked soooo bad.... the guys from Ben Lemond were even laughing =[ then marcie was being all nice about it and you would think it would make it better but it wasnt. then last night I was listening to a song from tarzan called you'll be in my heart and i burst out crying.... I miss my mom so much.... I love leslie its just that she cant fully fill in for my mom... I miss my family and am going through withdrawls and most nights I end up crying myself to sleep... you really don't realize what you have until its gone.... and I know that she isn't gone for forever its just hard.... but I guess I will just have to put on a smiley fake .... especially when around skyler..... which being around reminds me of my mom.... I got off the phone with my mom last night and before she hung up she said goodnight baby girl.... then when skyler was going to bed he said the same thing.... then I started crying again.... ugh lol.... then with friends.... I realize that we leave each other out alot.... like in p.e. we will ve walking and leave someone out so I decided I am no longer leaving anyone out... unless its on thursday and they are with their boyfriend